There has been so much happening in the last few months that I have neglected to write.
So hold on tight!!! Here it goes!!
Its September 6th, 2012
I am now pregnant with our 6th lovely miracle! Due December 25, 2012
We have moved to the small little town of Morrisonville. To a large house that needed and still needs lots of TLC.
Let see, we moved here in May and I found out after living here 5 days that I was expecting! Very much a surprise to Jeremy and I but VERY much welcomed. We were both VERY excited and I extremely nervous.
Having 5 healthy children really makes me appreciate each of them and how lucky we are. Now, God has honored us with the pregnancy of baby number 6!! How truly blessed we are!!
So today of all days I am reflecting back. Reflecting back to the last 10 years. Why you ask? Why today? Well, tomorrow Jeremy and I have been married 10 years. I cry out of honor, respect, love, the frustrations and the gratitude for these 10 years. I cant believe it!!
Geesh it's been a ride!!
I look back on the little things as we started that seemed so big that are now minor. I look back at where we came from: We started in a 2 bedroom little shack on his grandfather's property where we couldn't even afford to pay the electric and gas. I hated it there but I knew it was ours, it was home. I was going to cosmetology school and waitressing and Jeremy was working at a factory in Taylorville. We then moved to a little house on Franklin Street. I started working at an area salon and at that time Jeremy started working for a construction company.
We married 9 months after Jhett was born on September 7th, 2002. I was expecting our 2nd child already. No, it was not the storybook relationship but that didn't matter to us.
We didn't have a storybook engagement either and to be honest it kinda worried me.
It was lets get married . We are expecting baby number 2 so lets "shit or get off the pot."
So we did it! Planned the wedding in 2 short weeks. The budget was limited,but I will tell you that it was the most beautiful thing I remember!!
Ivory and black with a hint of red were the colors. I loved it!
I remember before the wedding, my dad grabbing my hands from across the table in the church hall crying his eyes out. He balled so hard walking me down the isle that I thought he wasn't going to make it. Then, I saw him, My husband! Holding my beautiful 9 month old boy and I realized that was it! They were my future! They were my everything!
We have laughed and cried. We have hated each other. Love seems stronger than hate though in this situation. We have both grown so much over the past 10 years. We have experienced disappointments and joys. The joys have out numbered the disappointments. This again is not a storybook relationship or life but its ours. We are so blessed to have each other and these 5 almost 6 wonderful children.
I have to actually say that we probably argue a lot! More than the normal couple. I blame it on both of us being stubborn. We always vow to make up and its worth it. This family is worth it. We may not be rich, have the nicest of material things, have the perfect marriage, best behaved children or yadayadayada,but we have each other and our children and no one can take that from us.
The minute that I think my husband can piss me off the most (like about 20 minutes ago) he then sends the kids in with flowers (nothing fancy because I hate fancy flowers! especially roses) and a card. IF that wasn't enough to make me cry! Reading the card did too and then this! This special message inside: I considered writing it down for you to read... then I thought twice. Its personal. Its him and I. So, as you can see He can piss me off one second and sweep me off my feet the next. He loves me despite my faults and I love him the same way. We would do anything for each other and can depend on each other for anything. Gosh!! I am so darn lucky!! I hope my kids learn unconditional love.
